;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Monday, February 19, 2007

THANKS alot
someone thinks im BIMBO
okay maybe i talk bimbo act bimbo
its an insult
i wouldn be this angry if not for from whom this comment came from
no im not angry im just getting a lil edgy beceause i dont know
okay im over reacting
but to trust that the few words you could think of describing me were that im " a bimbo with a good heart"

sorry im not really comforted
what the hell maybe youre right
from that day and from a long time ago
i tried hard to stop myselef from sinking into my thoughts
and everytime i cant help but do so
i realised my thoughts revolve around that same old thing
im trying hard to get out of this damn shit but sometimes it jsut doesnt work
abd when it doesnt i shut myself up
till i find another way to change the way i feel,
its gonna remain that way
my thoughts are stagnant i really cant help it
tell me a way how i can get out of this mess ive got myself into

youre not the only one
i hate myself for doing the things i do
i think
i worry
for what
theyre all the same things all over aagin
and i get damn upset all over again
i hate that feeling
they think they know
no you dont because
i dont even know what im saying
I JUST WANNA SCREAM

;; right from the beginning